Can I call you?

I am so tired of people and their negative mindsets. It’s exhausting.

I cannot understand why it is so wrong for me to want changes and to want to do something to make those changes happen. I’m only one person not a genie and while I might not make a huge difference in comparison to the problem the effort of more people would. If you have the chance to keep bad shit from happening to you, the next person, or numerous people, would you not do something about it?

I know some things cant be prevented because there will always be those people who are just pure shit and don’t give a fuck about hurting others. Why not do something to help reduce the chances of that happening though? We can’t breed the evil out of people but they can be held accountable.

When I say something about change I always get the response like “that’s just the way things are” or “you should focus on your own life, that’s not our responsibility”.  I can either do something positive and hope to plant seeds of change or throw my hands up and do nothing, either way there is a ripple effect.

Things are so fucked because no one is made to take responsibility and hardly anyone cares enough to make shit happen. Yes, there are more people demanding change now than ever before but it seems more secluded than widespread. Twice I have had cops tell me that “there’s two sides to every story” and “he said he didn’t do it”.  Isn’t that what all criminals say? Jackass made it clear that only one mattered and it wasn’t mine

After what happened a year ago and the way it was handled I decided I wanted to become a lawyer instead of getting my PhD in English. But here lately I have started to question my future plans of Law School. After a second incident and again cops that did nothing,  I started to wonder what is the point in going to school to become a lawyer and spend my life fighting to help victims get the justice they deserve if the system will never allow it.

Not only would I be fighting a constant losing battle in a system originally constructed for justice, but I would also never be a successful lawyer regardless of how good I actually was.

I would so be good.

But second guessing my plans is unfair. I’m not expecting everyone to agree with the changes I hope for and I’m not saying anyone has to fight for them with me. But it could be handled so much differently than it is now. I want to see changes that will reduce the rate of sexual assault cases and changes to the way they are handled by the justice system.

It seems like the first step might be to reevaluate the people I surround myself with by starting with those that have to vocalize how ridiculous they think it all is. These are the ones that don’t see the power of each person’s effort and how it all can lead to change. These people also don’t see how their “that’s just the way things are” attitude is keeping these changes from happening.

The first blog I saw this morning was someone who was giving up and wanted to kill himself. I immediately commented on it along with so many others.  I could have kept scrolling cause honestly I don’t know the person and don’t get on here much so I wouldn’t have known either way. The result would have no effect on me, but if everyone kept scrolling and said nothing…

But me not knowing him didn’t stop me from commenting because when something bad is about to happen you do what you can to prevent it no matter how small the effort might seem to others.

I don’t know you but I’m glad you’re still here.

5 thoughts on “Can I call you?

  1. If that stupid person is me your comment meant alot to me. Every comment every word count.
    What ever you want to do proves you are a compassionate person and there’s nothing wrong with that. I was like you i still am in alot of ways but i was reaching an extreme level and it was hurting me only so i calmed down a little. But it still happens nothing you can do about it.

    But you do the right thing.
    And if that was me..i am a she not he ☺

    1. Aww, thank you. You’re not stupid, some days can just be a lot harder than others. I lost my brother that way and I guess I automatically associated you with that and gave you a male identity. I am glad you posted it though instead of not saying anything, so many comments!!!

      1. this place is like a virtual home to me. people here are a virtual family and they really care about me. I am blessed in this department.
        I m sorry about your brother may his soul rest in peace.
        alot of people think im a guy because of my blog name..so I wasnt surprised 😆
        thanks for being here 🙂

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